behind it all.

The season is here again. Some friends break up. Some patched back. Many remained broken. Well, seems like i have seen it all. the better. the worse. I have heard from many friends and strangers alike. How stable can we get ? Even the married get divorce when 'they cant take it anymore'.

and ironically MCYS just launched an ad campaign to teach ppl about how to love the other half's imperfection.
http://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3D4I3ZmNKYma0&t=Beautifully%20Imperfect

Come onla. Which girl doesnt want to marry the perfect guy. It's like the standard goes higher and higher. They're never content. religion teaches us to not to be greedy. Yet we fail to follow it. We try to be devout and love god and all, but yet we console ourselves by saying that we're merely mortal, and we are sinners. And then we fall into the sick cycle again.

I hvae heard so many stories about couples. They argue everyday. Some broke up after 7 years. I got a friend some time back who was dumped by his girlfriend after 8 years. Hmm. did he do anything wrong? No. He didn't two timed her. I got a friend who broke up after 13 years. They were about to get married, when she realised that he's not the one. Pfft. there was one whose girlfriend fell for another guy after they were together for 5 years. Numbers. There was this character in one TVB drama that said " i do not dare to invest my time into a relationship because an 8 years old relationship could just be as fragile as a 3 months old one." He's right. to a certain extend.

Why am i back in this emo state ? Nah. im not. Just one final entry about it and I shall move on to more important things in life.

There was a story.

A teacher asked the pupil to find the biggest corn in the corn field and bring it back in one hour. The pupil started immediately.

She found one, but never stopped, and then she found another one.

And just when she thought she found one of the biggest corn that she'd seen in her life, she walked another row, and she found another one. So she dropped it and dashed towards the bigger one.

After one hour, the pupil returned to the teacher with nothing on hand. The teacher asked her why and she said that she thought she could always find something bigger. So in the end, she ended up with nothing.

Well, if you think your partner is not good enough, or imperfect in some way, come on. we're all humans. Cut him/her some slack. It's not the military. It's not a competition either. If your neighbours got a bigger car than you, then be it.

I have a feeling I have a clearer conscious than most of your christians out there. Not to say I am my own God, but i want to say that some of you go to church because of your own guilty conscience.

Love is not binary. There's a lot of grey area open to compromise, understanding, and most important of all, sacrifice.

All couples even those made in heaven have to communicate and discuss and negotiate which car to buy or which area they want their house to be. If a couple wants to be united forever, they should be prepared to spend a lot of time communicating. And not judging. Nor criticising. Nor comparing. Those things do them no good.

If you're a couple, and find that you all argue due to the stupidest and silliest things ... i say that you need to sit down and talk. Cherish each other. remember the times when you two just fell in love ? When you two sweet talk to each other as if it was free? Remember why you feel in love in the first place.

Why did i type such an entry? Cos i feel the frustrations when my friends complain to me about their partners. I hope to see you guys grow old together. I have seen the sweetest couples and i am really happy for them.

But if your partner is a MCP, then i say f it and move on.

Tomorrow will be zipping past cos i need to settle 2 projects tomorrow. There and then.
@ the central library. My favourite location in NUS.

Morning > M breakfast
Lunch > Arts canteen
Dinner > M Big mac. munch munch

Next week will be presentation week, and study week, and then exams.

The 20th push of the 20 pushups that i do is always the hardest. A lot of shit goes through my mind. "this is the last one, why dun u just slack" "this is the last one, u have done 19, u dun have to push so hard this time".

F. Time to buck up. THIS is it. I gotta push HARD.