We try to defy it. We try to outrun it. Some of us try to stretch it. Some try to buy it. Others sell it. Many think they cant get enough of it. Some actually gave up on it. They try to kill it. We try to win it. Most of us have fallen because of it. A small portion of us master the skills to control it. We manage it. We measure it to a 1 of a 10,000th second. Master slave relationships are usually not voluntarily. Thousands have published books on it.
*waits for the water to boil.
Today, the newspapers arrived at 4.30 am, as precise as any other day. I was sitting at the sofa, just staring at the guy as he slipped both the Today and mypaper in between the grill, not knowing that i was watching. I was there. Camouflaged by my own dark eye rings and fat belly.
*coffee is ready.
Both the electone and piano stared at me as if they knew me. well, i have been in this house for 7 years now. They should by now. Both are covered with white and red silk cloths as if they were dead but yet, still needed to be pampered. The electone is only about a third the price of the piano, but has so many more functions. It produces the world's most beautiful tones.
The birds were chirping but soon barely audible as the fan's motor cranked away. My nose was runny and my eyes were itchy. The temperature of the aircon was never right. 24 was too cold. 27 was too hot. Anything in between maked me uneasy. the fan was another problem.
*blows nose
After speaking to Adrian yesterday and visited era's office, I was given another option, and another insight about my life - my love life, my career, my future. Everything. As usual the guy who literally handed me a place in NUS has spoken. So where is the money now? Real Estate. When times are good, people anyhow buy. When times are bad, people anyhow sell.
Well, his theory is not all wrong, and he has a plan and a strategy to back it up. His businesses were never as simple as make the product, find the market, sell it. They were always backed by solid plans so that his market is always secured. CSR was his answer to this.
*blows nose
At the back of my mind, thoughts flowed rapidly. what about my passion? What about my dream of starting a company? what about entrepreneurship? these 3 years consist of weekly meeting with alexs to brainstorm ideas. hmm. I need an exit strategy.
Adrian told me to google new media company in Singapore. web designers. thousands of freelancers. Hundreds of companies. I told him to google real estate agents. He told me his plan. As usual, he was a smooth talker. Ha.
well, so at the end of the day, what do i want?
Today I had my first blackberry( it was a Bold ) experience. I was chatting with my friends on Msn, while traveling on the MRT. My Gmails' mails were pushed to me. The screen was marvellous. Nothing compared to the e61i. The earphones jack was standard 3.5mm, so i can simply plug in any headphones of my choice, and not some lousy stock ones. But blackberry's built quality was very very good, and the stock headphones were not bad too. The onboard speakers were stereo and the qwerty keypad was a bliss.
*slurps finish coffee
So Adrian was telling me to focus on my career first. He knew me all the way back in 2003. He was my first client. www.tyem.org :D He was the one who actually gave me the first job and well, the confidence to do others. Career always comes first. And then before he dropped me at the MRT, he told me " The longer you wait, the better the mate ". That rang for the longest time.
I know what I should do with my time. I believe we all have the power to slow time for things which are meaningful for us. I slow it down for projects. I speed it up when I am feeling like shit.
*Makes another cup of coffee. No sugar. Black.
It's crazy to wake up at 4 am and type away. I know. But it's fun. Get it off my chest.
Hope all of u dads who are nt feeling well, for one reason or another were admitted in the hospital, I hope you guys are getting better. Get well soon.
Till the next entry.
17 more days before my journey in NUS ends and another begins.
Has NUS given me the knowledge to be wiser and to be more confident? Have I, on my part honoured my promise during the interview 4 years ago, the promise which I made when I looked into the Dr's eyes and said, I will give in my best, and learn as much as I can, because I want to be an entrepreneur? well..
Time will tell.
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