It was saddening. Good men not acting when the situation calls for them. Evil prevails. Sigh. EugeneHeng always says " Some are born good. Some turned good. " Which category do I fall under?" Again, I'm not so sure if it's all the exams stress, the overdose of ribs with gary, the Yingyang Drink and peanut toast @ KimGary ( no pun intended ), or it's just me. I have had indigestion, the most wicked nightmares that made me wana bury my head under the bedbug ridden bed, moments where I stoned for 5 minutes straight, staring at the light in front of me. Like I am drifting.
Here I go again, right? What is it. What is this emotion which I tried running away from which seem to be overwhelming me now. I am excited about H∞vix. Gary and I just had a 3 hours brainstorm session, about the structure, the launch strategy, the long term goal, the short one, the ..
*** Interrupted by this English cluster mate. I feel bad. I spoke 5 sentences ( i counted) to him in this whole 10 months that we stayed together in the same cluster. He's leaving for Vietnam, and he's not coming back anymore. All the opportunities which I had to talk to him, to know him better, to find out more about him, are all down the drain. I don't know. It's weird. As I watched him walking down the hallway, I feel like I am letting a friend walking away.Just now i thought i would give him a hug, but i was in my boxers, and it would be weird if I suddenly initiate physical contact with him. HAha. Well, at least I added him on FB last friday. And at least I shook his hand just now.
Now. Back to H∞vix. yeh, we discussed a bit about the manpower management , the project management process.. well all the standard stuffs that must be ironed out before starting a company. Got pretty excited about the launch plan. Sent my heart racing when an idea hit us. It's great.
Anyway we wanted to watch the Xmen Wolvey, but the best seat was like 2nd row from the front. We gave it a miss. Browsed some magazines at PageOne, looked for wacom tablet pads at Best, Challenger..
It's weird. This feeling. Like I'm lost. Not about my career. But about life. About these few months. Just lost. Not sure what I want to achieve. Not sure if i'm good for anything. Not sure. Uncertainty is looming tall.
Difficult times. Quite a number of projects to settle. Some have started since last Oct. Gotta complete all of them before accepting new projects.
A thought on Queues - since i studied Queuing systems this semester, I thought, why not share something here. The Hongkong Kim Gary Restaurant. We walked past it twice, and we saw the long queue outside the restaurant. The moment we saw it, we said let's come back again. And usually people who said that they would, will not come back. But we did. And actually, the queue looks long, but the customers waiting in line actually disappear into the restaurant quite quickly. Well, this is called human perception. The conclusion is - we must make sure that the customers think that the queue is very short, even though it takes forever to reach the end.
Well. it's like 6 am. What did i do to deserve such sanity and clarity to submit an entry at this hour. Pheephee, you're right. Perhaps I am boring. And well, Kai Li is right too. Boring guy studying some boring subject trying to be creative. True. True all true. Damn. Damn. Damn.
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