I stared at the blank canvas for 10 minutes, and then i gave up. Updates then.
Past few months have been challenging, forcing me to take on an identity, slightly nudging me beyond my typical comfort zone. Have been more consistent in clocking office hours, and trying to break new grounds in terms of levels of efficiency. We are currently pushing 11 projects simultaneously :
GKL, AGO, SGL, USF, ECOV, TEDx, TOTO, CANON, an Iphone app, an Android app, a fundings pitch
Most of the days I couldn't sleep lying in bed, letting the adrenaline rushing through my body. It's that bad or good depending which angle you're peeping from. And not forgetting the interviews we're doing too. We found talent along the way, the gems that keeps the engines running. Those that allow me to concentrate on what i'm suppose to do, and they, settle what they're empowered to. Those - I respect, and am thankful I found them. Retaining talent requires this balance between pushing them to the limit so that they get job satisfactions, make them comfortable to be part of this family, and rewarding those who are deserving.
It's been a month of turbulent world cup matches ( why would anyone think wc would be predictable anyway ) and even with all the hedging and seat belts buckled up, we are still in the deficit in the betting basket. The finals shall determine the final breakeven+profit or a deficit in the final figure. Godspeed. It's been fun, with all the daily analysis of the teams, past games, present forms, individual players' fitness, coaches' antics, the altitude. Well, brought back the memories with my childhood friend, that's for sure.
Sundays have been good. Addicted to the ice tea, and stand-ups lunches, and away from emails and all the noise for at least 2 hours. It's been very calming. The company has been great, some.
And so, Gary got married in May, and again in Sept ( thankfully to the same woman ) in Shanghai. Got our air tickets for Shanghai already. This trip, will bring back a lot of memories, though I have successfully blocked almost everything out, but I guess when we're there, immersed in it again, i'm sure they'll return. Excited to see progress, and changes in Shanghai. We know how things move there. It's been 2 years since we were there, and we swore we would be able to hear the NOC gang's laughter filling the Fu Shen Restaurant and the Zhong Shan Condo.
We practised hard for Gary's May Wedding, and also SHINE's youth festival which took place in Orchard last week. And we played our hearts out. To really create some fireworks, we gotta play more diligently, and jam at least twice a week. Wish us luck.
Printed out all the itineraries for 2010 and 2011, and pasted them all over the office's wall. And it's scary how many tickets I've bought. Anyway, we met Ascendas last week to discuss about the possibility of moving out of NUS. Not in the near future.. maybe next year.
When we discuss bonuses, perks and benefits, I feel like toggling the teleport button so that I can disappear from the table. When others bitch about their jobs, I feel like smacking them. Maybe cos I'm always with Damon the evergreen optimist who doesn't complain about his job, and Gary, who takes challenges for breakfast. Well, that's just me. Cos sometimes when people whine or complain, they have NO idea what the listeners' circumstances are, and well, talking is one thing, but I guess you have to put in more effort to relate and normalise the scale so that people around you dont feel like idiots when you talk about your 'low' 'bonus'. Well, this world is always short of some sensitivity and tact. Not that it matters anyway, cos after a night sleep, it's reset for me. and here I am typing a super duper long post.
We gotta figure what we want in life soon, so that we have enough time to realise the dream and sip wine on the sofa in the living room. There's not much time. Happiness is never eternal, joy never fills up the soul forever. Only fools think about happiness all the time. Quote unquote the bible I must say.
Anyway, the world cup has been tiring, it's as if we're all playing in the matches. Especially the 2.30 am matches. And I feel that we're looking at the '4 years once' thingy too seriously. I remember 4 years ago, in 2006, when I was sipping some cold drink eating some fruits, watching the wc alone back in Woodlands. And 2002, was with fy and clement. Somehow they woke up to watch too. And 1998, I believe I was with my good friend. And this World cup has been the worst so far, as there's so much external pressure in terms of how to react to fields' events. I'm really talking as if I played in em. "haha"
Poker was good too. Learnt it at Claudia's place during the BBQ and after that, I clicked on the Texas Hold'em FB application for the first time. Everyday I log on to play 10 hands, and there's much to learn from poker. Just like in any games in life, they reflect your thoughts about life. Ok maybe not so much in Poker. and it's so different playing online.
There's more shit happening, but well, things come and go, and there'll be more shit happening. So everyday, the mindset should be, shit's gonna happen anyway, so dont try to deflect it or be uber disappointed when they happen. Just take it with an open heart and it'll feel less shitty soon enough. That's when you just show the eat-shit-face and move on very quickly.
Somedays, I feel like disappearing into the jungle with ___. Fill in the blank.
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